| what a show |
[Jul. 29th, 2006|12:49 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  enthralled | ] |
| [ | music |
| | saves the day in my head | ] |
so warped tour was today! woo hoo! it was prettttty cool... saves the day was playing a double set (one of which being acoustic) and i read on their website that one of them was going to be really early so i made everyone get up early so we could make it there in time...
so we got there around noon if not a little before just to find out that they played at 6 and 7:45... which is so not a bad thing because i got to see them both! motion city soundtrack was playing right before them so i wanted to go over there and try to get up front..
but as we were about to make our way there i see this really skinny chick puking her guts her out for like a minute it was horrible to watch.. so i went up to her to make sure she was okay and she said no so i went and got her some water before taking her to the first aid booth... i waited with her until her mom came which was like five seconds.. her name was britney (sorry if i spelled that wrong) and if we are randomly myspace friends and you read this i hope you made it home okay and that you feel better...
after that i went back to motion city and we got to about 30 feet away from the stage when taylor and ross decide its too hot and they dont want to stand there so brandon and lindsey stood with me but that crazy FAST... the crowd went nuts and pushed and tried to mosh where there was no room and there were crowd surfers and since i was singing at the top of my lungs (or trying to) i was out of breath pretty quick... so we got out of there and enjoyed the rest of the set... no one around me was singing except for me but thats okay.. im always proud to be a fan
so saves the day rolls around and i was so super excited and i got up to the second row because not very many people were there yet... and no one wanted to come with me because wah wah wah.. and i met this kid who loves them as much as i do and we were behind these girls saving spots for their friends... they said we could have their spots if they didnt come back... but they did and the show started and it was awesome and my new friend and i sang EVERY word and those bitches knew TWO SONGS... i was pissed... and they were making fun of us for being so into it... so that was all around not cool... but i couldnt really care because i love saves the day... duh
and i saw chris conley see me from the stage and he was watching me know every song... it was cool... so when it was over i went to try and find him.. naturally... it worked out... i saw him and asked him for a hug so he came over and gave me one and i told him that ive met him before and he goes 'i remember, at bogarts' and i was like NO SHIT!!! and we chit chatted and i asked if he saw me and he said yes and i said that i figured.. i also told him that freakish is my favorite song and he said he would play it during the acoustic set...
so i met up with my fellow std fan and i saved him a spot in the FRONT row... and we stood and sang together... and a couple songs go by and chris says 'i know YOU wanted to hear freakish' and pointed at me... and then played it!!!! it was UNbelievable.. a dream come true.. a reality inconceivable.. but it sure as shit happened...
and afterwards i met a really cool guy and exchanged numbers! i had such a great day... my love for saves the day is rekindled... more than it was before... the CONNECTION is still there... i heard so many good songs and knew them all... he played my favorite song for me!!!! it was beautiful...
one of the best concert experiences hands down... i will go to sleep one happy girl |
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| my lost months will stay lost |
[Jan. 10th, 2006|01:48 am] |
livejournal looks completely different... its weird...
i havent updated in sooo long... a lot has happened... i made some new friends and lost some too.. im back at my parents house...
well if i start updating again its going to be like the bible..
as in im not going to go into whats happened since my last update... like jesus lost years.. does that make since?
you know it does you ass clown.
*shrugs* sorry im bitter. |
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| bah humbug |
[Oct. 16th, 2005|03:27 pm] |
a lots been up lately...
rebecca got shipped out a couple weeks ago out of no where... so sean and i are really fucked over... she said shed leave us money but she didnt... sean had to use his entire paycheck to pay our rent and he says he can afford to do that but it sucks to immediately be out of money... so we have a couple of options...
1. wait for rebecca
now, i thought that we could rely on her and that she would always be honest with us and everything would follow through... but after all of the things ive heard she said about me and things she said that turned out to be lies... thats kind of tough to do... sean says that it sounds like she wont use her bh to help us... but she told me she would... but she was also supposed to leave checks of her share for us too...
2. get another room mate
i dont know anyone who would want to move into a 2 bedroom apartment with both bedrooms taken
3. break our lease and go somewhere cheaper
just breaking the lease would cost 3000 dollars
4. get a second job and keep struggling though
i dont know about this option... i hate working so much and i cant imagine working even more... but i really dont want to move... i dont like to do it...
well thats the technical stuff... but sean has really been upsetting me lately... i never see him and everytime he calls me he hangs up at the end and doesnt say good bye... i HATE that
im in such denial im not stressed about all of this though... i dont have any time to worry...
i open work now... and they have me back at georgetown... it really sucks to open... maybe 5 people come in all day and i just read tabloids... if it wasnt from 9a-6p this would be great... but since its so long time goes by very VERY slowly...
well i have to go and close work tonight... im in brownsburg so i have to head out of here... tomorrow is a much needed day off but i have family stuff all day...
i need to find some time for all the friends ive ended up neglecting im sorry ladies you know i love you
someone kill me please,
Samantha
ps... aaron please dont say 'i told you so' |
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| i blew a lot of a certain body part today |
[Sep. 24th, 2005|12:46 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | dashboard | ] |
you perverts its my nose!
im so sick its stupid... all i did was lay around all day and cough and sneeze and blow my nose... along with watching tv napping and then some more tv and then napping...
im about to go to bed again actually...
im so tired... and i feel like shit... ugh
ill probly still have to go to work...
speaking of work i almost wish i hadnt gotten promoted... it takes so much effort... my room mate got on me about not answering my phone... but i dont hear it half the time anyways... but i just dont want to work on my days off...
i dont want to go in early and stay late...
i dont want it to absorb my life more than it has...
but it seems that thats whats required...
so much responsibitity and effort...
when i thought it was just paperwork and extra keys...
and one of my room mates wants to move out... and my other room mate doesnt want another room mate... which means i have to work my ass off all the time because my rent will nearly double...
i am in far too deep
*sneeze*
maybe this is a stress cold if there is such a thing...
come cuddle with me, im all sick though so no sex,
Samantha |
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| times a wastin |
[Sep. 18th, 2005|01:36 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | lifehouse what? | ] |
im sitting here listening to a song my room mate loves... you and me by lifehouse... my estogen loves that song... i was listening to third eye blind but my ear drums have been taken over... ah well
i should be getting ready to go because when she comes back we are going to go out for mexican...
i freakin love that girl...
*shakes head*
and i think something either very good or very bad is going to happen...
i guess we will see...
speaking of bad things... married men have been all about me lately! its like... what the fuck...
actually i dont want to go there...
i got my nose peirced yesterday... my friend heard about a free peircing day at this one place because they were handing out fliers at x-fest... and she told me about it and said her fiancee was going to get his labre done... i said i wanted to go and get my nose done... and im still pretty suprised that i ended up doing it...
i love peircings... i had a moment of zen with this one... there was nothing but black (eyes closed) and the pressure of the guy holding my hand and then there was a catcher up my nose and a sudden pink blossom behind my eyelids coordinated with a pinch... and i felt my right eye tear up and stream heat down my face (i got it done on the right side)... and then i opened my eyes and sat up...
and that was that the moment passed and i went back to my non zen life with a new accessory... its a little diamond looking thing...
it didnt discolor or anything... other than the initial pain it was nothing... if i hit my nose on accident (and youd be suprised how much i do that) or flared my nostrils it was like.. whoa... that didnt hurt but it didnt feel good... and today its just fine... doesnt hurt at all didnt bruise... just bled yesterday for like a minute...
its been crusty a little but no big deal at all to clean... a little hand soap and swabbing wrapping it up with a little sterile saline solution... like for contacts... ive never heard that before... but it really does soothe...
that brings my total to 11 with 10 that i wear...
actually i always lie about that...i only wear 8 now... i havent worn my double holes in a very long time it just looks like i have orbitals...
oh well... no one knows but the people who read this... and you wont tell anyone right?
good i trust you... well i really need to go and get ready...
i have to work tonight but my room mate said shed work a couple hours for me so i could go in late... because we... well i... got plastered last night
lets have sex,
Samantha
ps.. did i say it looks awesome? because it fucking does.. if you wondered... if anyone wants to see it i will be in brownsburg on monday and wednesday... but try for wednesday because im supposed to hang out with my mom all day monday i miss miss miss miss miss her |
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| ghoulies and ghosties |
[Sep. 14th, 2005|02:47 pm] |
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| | high | ] |
so... i dont know if anyone remembers that i have a pendulum... but i do and it would never work or give me accurate answers and iw ould just get pissed at it...
so i took some advice and soaked it in sea salt for three days in an atempt to 'cleanse' it of all the people who have ever touched it before...
and it was done yesterday and i took more advice from my good friend lacey to keep it wil me all the time and play with it as much as i could...
so i took it to work yesterday and i get there and my boss and i were asking it questions and it was wrong and he said it was just because of his being a skeptic... his negative energy or something...
but since he promoted me he left right after that and i was by myself for two hours... now i technically shouldnt be promoted... im just being paid 6.50 to not know what im doing...
the point is i didnt do shit yesterday... i listened to music and played with my chrystal... at our store you can always hear movies fall off the shelves when your in there alone and when you walk back there to see what fell nothing did... and you dont always feel alone when you are... so when i got the feeling i started asking about the ghost... it said she was a woman who died in a car accident and actually haunts starbucks and just spends a lot of time at hollywood...
after all of the questions were answered and i couldnt htink of anything else to ask... shit started happening... i felt a presence even more when wed have no customers... and when we closed our printer flipped out... it just ran paper for like 30 feet... and it did that twice... and our alarm kept saying there was a door open when there wasnt..
and every time i ran movies there be some noise like 10 ft away from me... a movie would/wouldnt fall.. the tvs would click... it was weird... uncomfortable... i might have stirred shit up...
well i used it again when emily came over... and lost her keys and after looking for half an hour we decided to ask it... didnt really expect it to be accurate...and i asked inside or outside? (in) balcony, my room, living room (my), bathroom, under my bed, on my bed (bath)... and they were in the fucking bathroom... swear to god... it told me where they were... and they were fucking there... it was insane...
well i just wanted to say that...
lets have sex,
Samantha
ps I FUCKING LOVE SAVES THE DAY |
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| picture yourself in a boat on a river... |
[Sep. 7th, 2005|03:25 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | sgt peppers lonley hearts club band | ] |
i think my favorite line in that song is 'with tangerine trees and marmalade skies'...
but we arent there yet now are we?
we got a kitty... and shes is much better than the dog... haha... i.e. i dont have to clean her shit up off the carpet the second i wake up... but on the other hand shes in heat and cries and cries in the middle of the night...
not that ive been sleeping anyway... i tried to sleep at my moms today because i had to go and get my check from brownsburg anyways... but i just ended up laying around and watching the ladykillers... that movie sucks but i love tom hanks...
the only other thing ive done so far today is buy incense at karma... i just ran out and my tarot readings are more accurate when i burn it... i have a new favorite one... it always used to be fairydust (yeah yeah i know) but there was this new one called hot apple cider... and i loved it so much i got two sticks...
which is totally breaking the rules because i never get two of anything... i just pick at random and then burn at random...
i feel sorry for who ever is reading this because it is a bunch of worthless crap...
so ill say something juicy...
ive gotten a lot of male attention lately... but its always the temporary kind... but i dont really worry about it because i wouldnt want to spend a lot more time with either of them anyway...
i do like someone but i have gone to great efforts to keep that little affair off this page... mainly because i know what the advice would be and i dont want to hear it...
*sneeze*
gross...
i miss leilah... a lot... and i feel that she should call me tomorrow after 9... so my minutes are free... my next phone bill is gonna be awful i just know it... i might have to upgrade my plan...
probly...
well there i go again with mindless babble... but i need to put some clothes on and go to work anyways...
lets cuddle... and please try not to feel me up... i just want to lay here,
Samantha |
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| busy busy busy |
[Sep. 3rd, 2005|02:03 pm] |
it seems like im always doing something or getting ready to do something lately...
i work 4-cl almost everyday of the week and i sleep until like 130 and i have to set my alarm to get up then and usually end up stayin in bed until 2...
i mean im still up all night but the only person from brownsburg who comes over that late is emily...
i miss an extrodinary amount of phone calls on this schedule... everyone calls during the day when im asleep or in the shower and when i notice that i missed it im like 'damn its daytime minutes'... and im at work when it would be most appropriate to call because i dont want to wake anyone up at midnight...
reprecussions of this cycle:
jessica thought i was avoiding her
my grandmother thought i was dead (she always over reacts)
my parents were both freaking out because of my grandmother
lacey called me and i was asleep but said in her message i couldnt call her back
i really need a phone that i can use instead of my cell phone... i cant get more any time minutes because i dont have that kind of money... ah well...
thats what happens when you move out i guess, you are suddenly short of both time and money...
i should have seen this coming...
i really miss gabby... i need to find some time when i can see her... maybe i can hang out with her and jessica... or maybe its been so long we just need to be alone... i dont know.. hopefully we can revamp our friendship...
but the problem is when... i always have plans for my days off now.. i have to house sit for my parents on monday... and at some point move the couch HOPEFULLY FINALLY... and the next day off i have to job hunt... but i think i want a job in the mall... so maybe someone could come with me... it will be like shopping only trying to earn money as oppossed to spending it...
thank you captain obvious...
on that note i need to continue getting ready for work...
lets have sex,
Samantha |
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| lets all say it together |
[Aug. 30th, 2005|03:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | ronnie day | ] |
im so depressed i could die! i desperately need to live in my own little bubble i think... it was easy enough at my parents house because during the day my mom was outside and at night everyone was asleep... it was easy enough to pretend that i was alone...
but here one of my room mates is always home... the timing is horrible... ill be alone for like two seconds and then someone else will walk in the door... when my male room mate and i are home together we mainly sit in our respective rooms... i feel like a caged animal doing that almost...
hes in his room and im on the internet with this new guy i found (ronniedaymusic.com) playing behind me... all i did today was talk to my mom and watch the rain fall from my window...
thats the only thing that keeps me sane i think... we are on the second floor and even with the leaves and you can see the drops hit them individually... its a beautiful thing to watch...
well im getting ready to go and have dinner with my family... and pay my phone bill... im so short on money its awful... rebecca has to take out a payday loan so that we can pay rent because sean didnt have enough this month and neither of us can cover him.... now this really worries me for two reasons...
1 this month was the cheapest month its ever going to be and we still cant pay it
2 we do not have any food here and payday is like on the 6th
but it only gets worse... we all work at the same place... which means that NONE of us will have money until then and thats a week away... iw ouldnt be able to go to brownsburg if my mom hadnt said shed give me gas money...
it seems that all i ever do is fuck myself over..
lets cuddle at watch the rain... run your fingers through my hair maybe...yeah... thatd be nice for a while
Samantha |
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| nothing ever goes right |
[Aug. 28th, 2005|10:34 am] |
i am so pissed at my manager... i like him as a person but as a worker he sucks...
last night i was scheduled until midnight and my room mate was scheduled to actually clost (i.e. stay until one with the manager on duty so that she was not there alone).. but another store needed her... so that stores manager found another girl to replace rebecca... a girl that was pregnant, had a broken foot, and had been working since noon...
so my manager bitched and bitched about how when something like that happened he covered his own shifts when he had to instead of stealing rebecca which seems to be everyones solution to every problem...
and he said that the girl we borrowed could leave at 8 and that he would come back and do the closing work so that i could go home... a few hours later the girl is gone and my manager calls and says that he in fact wont be coming back... and he didnt ask me to close... of course i stayed anyone because im not leaving a friend alone in the ghetto when someone tried to follow my room mate and i home the other night... theres no fucking way... so instead i just didnt actually do any closing work...
i left him at least 4 stacks of movies... and he calls me this morning at 930 wondering why i left all these movies... all i said really was that i had customers.. and he said alright bye... so i text messaged him that the girl left at 8 and he was supposed to come back... and that i was going to do what he said he would do... he said 'didnt you volunteer?'... and i said fuck no i did not
he said this sucks, forget it...
and i want to text him back saying thanks for having me work the extra hour so that you could go get drunk... thanks a lot... and then to make it even better you call me at 930 when you know i closed last night and that i have to be up so i can work at 4... thanks a whole fucking lot... what ever happened to 'i cover my own shifts when i have to' you hypocrit son of a bitch...
im so pissed... im really sick of hollywoods shit... guess what my manager is doing today? my mother of 3 coworker has to come in at 3 and work until close on the only day her fiance has off so that my manager can play a 'very important' game of fantasy football...
the worlds biggest deuche bag..
and also one of my room mates did give my other room mate enough rent money and had sex in our apartment when he said he wouldnt... my life is full of drama...
i miss my cat and want to go home...
lets cuddle and you can tell me everything is alright,
Samantha |
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| NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO |
[Aug. 26th, 2005|12:55 am] |
eben left saves the day and on their huge ass fucking tour they are not coming here again... oh i could cry... i cant believe it! why oh why oh why...
alright... road trip... im serious... whos coming? |
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| that was a crazy game of poker (that was a crazy game of poker) |
[Aug. 20th, 2005|01:22 pm] |
the oar show was freakin awesome!! luke and i went and had a great time... the two opening bands sucked ass so we smoked some pot and then when oar was about to play we got really close...
it was really awesome... that played all the ones i wanted to hear! i love how its just watching a jam session... all of the members are amazing...
we didnt stick around to meet them though... there was a big fence in front of where the buses were... so we just kind of said fuck it...
in other news...
my parents miss me! a lot! they BOTH called yesterday just to talk to me and they wanted to take me to the state fair! and since i couldnt go they decided to stop by on their way home! haha... i miss them too though...
its almost like i didnt move away as much time as im spending in brownsburg... my mom took me shopping, then i had to go and pick up emily and then i had to take her home the next day and pick up luke and then i had to take him home... im still wasting gas like no other...
but now that its not work related im not quite so pissed off...
well i have to work today which means that i need to get in the shower right about now...
lets have sex,
Samantha
ps... what happened squirrelly? i tried to cal lyou back and it went straight to your voicemail and then i had no signal for like 10 minutes... ill call you tomorrow.. maybe if you feel up to it we can go out for mexican... or yats... i think yats sounds better |
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| i live somewhere else |
[Aug. 18th, 2005|10:50 am] |
got all my shit moved in yesterday... it took all of my family's help to do it... and its funny... im the only one with all of my shit moved in... maybe shawn does i dont know... but rebecca still has to get her bed out here...
well i should say 'there'... im at my moms house right now... thats still so weird to say... but we were going shopping today because she said she would be awake by 10... but alas it is nearly 11... i hate to wake her up... but i might have to...
i have a job interview at 4 and i need shampoo and stuff to shower with... so i have to be home by 1 to begin preparations... i work 5-10 today after that... maybe i will just take a book and read once its over with... because im not too keen on going into work early...
maybe i should just wear my job uniform... because i have no idea what to wear... fuck.. other than my tongue retainer... im thinking a skirt and a tank top... but thats what i always wear... so that doesnt really count as dressing up or looking nice if i do it all the time right?
i dont know...
well the point is that i have a new home and am having a part in said new home on monday... and everyone i know should come... especially jessica for i miss her fiercely
well my mom is awake now and i want to see what others have written in their journals... much love and wish me luck...
lets have sex in my new apartment,
Samantha |
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| i watch hermaphriditic porn. |
[Aug. 14th, 2005|02:57 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | high | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the new jason mraz | ] |
yesterday i got into this conversation with a customer... he came up to my regisiter and was like hey! how ya doin? and i said i was better when i didnt have customers... i asked him if hed ever seen clerks because im like the female version of randal... and he said oh you always close up? and i said not i look at hermaphriditic porn...
how an i not fired? seriously how do i still have a job there?
im going in an hour late today so that i can go and hang out with my aunt before she goes back to maryland... all i ever do is work it seems like.. and its going to get worse becaues i have to get another job... ah well... rebecca wants to bump up the moving day to wednesday so i have to start packing soon... probly tomorrow... but i told leilah id hang out with her so maybe ill just recruit her to help me...
we can smoke pot and listen to music and pack my shit... that sounds like fun... i miss leilah and im sure ill miss her more in a couple weeks... its weird that we are all growing up... and one day it will be weird that we are all soccer moms... i feel very mortal
i always thought id be young forever... i guess every body does though...
well i need to get ready to leave... no one is going with me so im going to have to fend for myself... theres no one to distract them... and thats usually awkward anyways...
lets have sex,
Samantha
ps... the fat guy at work the smells awful closed with me last night and at one point he got really closeto me and me that i smell good... it was the most disgusting thing... its really hard to just laugh those off but i dont want him to think i take him seriously... and we also got out of there at fucking 2 in the morning... what an incompetent fuck... who smells!! |
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| theres no escape from the chorus of people screaming |
[Aug. 12th, 2005|01:29 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  grumpy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | saves the day, motion city soundtrack, green day (1039) | ] |
gas isnt something i usually bitch about... just because i dont understand and dont pretend about how gas is priced... i just accept it... which i the easiest way for me to deal with it...
but i have to fucking get gas every other day... im working 5 days in a row which means i have to drive roughly 40 minutes total every day... which wouldnt normally bother me but this fucking blows...
its really draining my funds... at least i move a week from monday... then the drive will be much shorter...
ive lost like 20 pounds... but hopefully i will lose more with the 24 hour gym (that i havent seen yet) and even if that sucks its right by crown hill so i can go for a run that really lets me know im alive (oh ho ho what a hoot i am)
but i want to start eating healthier too... ive just been eating lean meat lately... i havent been to a fast food place in a while... which is impressive if you think about it... i havent even seen supersize me!
but yeah i want to start eating meat made out of vegetables... and lots more fruit... maybe take diet pills... i dont know...
i wanna be fucking hot and i want to get a fucking hot boyfriend... so hopefully this isnt all wishful thinking...
i dont know...
i just hope i make enough money... i know for a fact that i dont right now... but the issue is i have a very hard time getting hired for me to get a second job...
i think im going to go into work half an hour early today so that i can go to starbucks and try to get them to give me an interview... they pay like 3 bucks more starting than i make after having worked there for a year... the only issue is that its right next door to where i work now... so id see a lot a lot a LOT of the same customers...
god i hate customers...
im like the guy from clerks... ive been SUCH an asshole lately... yesterday some guy went through the security thing when returning a movie and it went off... and i said HEY! WHAT ARE YOU THINKING? and threw stuff at him... i hit him too... he just laughed at me though...
and when people bring me display boxes... i point at the sticker and say 'cant you read?' i mean... these people must have failed preschool... since i work downtown the store has everything in a hard plastic case that you have unlock...
how long have you been coming here you fucking retarded deuche bag that you dont know that plastic case means movie... no lock at all and a sticker means theres not one? we should offer a fucking class or something...
i fucking hate my job... i MIGHT hate it less if it paid more... but who knows...
im going to go start getting ready for work now... hopefully the starbucks people wont be mad that im asking for an interview in my work uniform...
*shrugs* unless they hire me fuck them
lets have sex,
Samantha |
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| lonely am i |
[Aug. 11th, 2005|12:31 am] |
i just got off work.. i have to work for the next 4 days and i move in 12... im scurred... i wish i could take my cat... but i dont think shed like it... i couldnt do that to her...
its so strange to take a step towards acting like an adult... a fucking big step too i think...
but i suppose ill survive...
my mom and i watched the last episode of queer as folk today... we are so sad it ended... why did they do this to us! *sigh* at least it didnt just kind of fall over and die... it wentout on a good note id say...
i need a new show to watch with my mom! ive fallen out of watching the real world.. i only watch vh1 and adult swim anymore
not that it matters i guess since im moving.. but we could talk about it at least!
i gave a tarot reading to this guy who has been calling me about one... and he told me that hes married today after offering to buy me coffee and stuff... its not like it matters... i was just suprised because i figured he was gay... but then again he didnt say he had a wife...how do you ask something like that?
ah well... he got the divorce card anyways... but he didnt tell me he was married until after the readng... which is good... it would have been awkward... i dont like telling people they have relationship problems... especially if they didnt say anything to me baout it in the first place
i dont know... the world it turns...
lets have sex,
Samantha
(or really just cuddle... i need to feel you next to me) |
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| all grown up |
[Aug. 8th, 2005|04:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  liberated | ] |
got an apartment today... with one of my friends from work... her name is rebecca... and we GOT AN APARTMENT TODAY we move august 22nd... its a two bed two bath 850 a month...
buuuuuuuuut
we get august free and only have to pay 343 for september... and then she goes to the navy in january and so that will pay for our rent! so we only have to worry about three months of rent and we have enough time to get second jobs before that kicks in...
im very nervous...
but thats okay... my tarot cards told me what to expect... it said property matters would go well and to enjoy this calm because im about to get very busy... and i have to get a second job!!
im very excited...
i wonder what my mom will say...
i havent told her yet...
im not at home right now...
but i am about to go home and i think that we will cry for a while... or at least i hope we do and if we dont cry tonight then i hope we cry before i move...
i need to have one last really good bonding session with my mom...
i mean... not last as in forever last as in before i fly the coop hopefully for good...
hopefully they will continue to pay for my car and then will pay for me to go to school because i think that since i growing up i should really just kick it back into gear... i could get my ged and thn start at like ITT in the winter...
that would work out nice i think...
i hope...
i pray...
well i hope really hard...
well lets all have sex,
Samantha
ps my cards also said i would be feeling the creative flow and ive been writing haikus like a fiend and painting like its my job... itd be cool if it was anyways... |
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[Aug. 8th, 2005|02:26 am] |
took some sleeping pills
but i cant feel them working
i even took three!
i should be asleep
in my strange real time dream world
my only escape
i like all my dreams
because they are just like books
vivid and detailed
and once i get out
only by diving deep in
i have to wake up
off to disconnect
but i will reconnect soon
for it is my fate |
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